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Apr. 7th, 2021 10:35 pmI've been more socially engaged with fandom over the past couple of days, and that's been exciting for me, but also anxiety-inducing. I'm posting more. I'm commenting more. I almost did a meme...!
I don't know if I can turn all of that energy into a coherent post, but I did want to mark it down somewhere to look back on later when it inevitably becomes hard for me again. I just want to get a few things down before the intense perfectionism brings me down again. So, I'm going to let this post be a bit disorganized, and I'm going to go as far down a random list of things as I can before I get tired.
1. I want to try answering a few questions off the 31 Days of The Untamed meme that![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jo_lasalle made and littledust has been doing.
( Day 1 )
2. The meme I did and then deleted (Twitter and my brain are pure chaos together) was about posting WIP file names and inviting people to ask about them. I'm always so afraid of posting things like that, because they require outside participation to function. In my heart, I know no responses probably means bad timing/bad luck with the algorithm. But my brain always manages to convince me that it's because I'm dumb or boring. I did legitimately have fun tracking down all my WIPs, so I thought I'd just post them here. Not because I expect anyone to be interested, but because they're eating a hole in my brain, and I have to do something semi-public with them or I'll never get any peace!
( Does this count as a WIP Wednesday??? )
3. Speaking of fanfiction! I finished a ficlet to fill a MDZS rarepairs prompt, but I'm not sure I'm confident to post it in any way that will link back to an account that is me. My AO3 account isn't linked to my Twitter or Dreamwidth, so I think I'd be comfortable posting it as part of the collection there and then linking to it in an anonymous comment on DW. If I do that, though, I definitely need to get started on my goal of doing a bit of maintenance on the one fic I finished/posted back in September. I reread it a few days ago, and I'm still pleased with the overall idea, but I don't like the title, I don't like the description, and there are just a few annoying inconsistencies/repetitions between the chapters I'd like to clean up before bringing any attention to the account. I don't know anyone to help beta, so it ultimately turned out pretty rough, despite my best efforts... ANYway, I've been meaning to give it a little sprucing up for ages, so this is good motivation!
4. I finished my Xiao Xingchen embroidery gift and sent it to my friend. I got the notification that it had been delivered at the same time that she posted on Twitter about driving home from the grocery store, and my breath literally left my body. It was, like, ten minutes of pure agony before she posted on her account about it, and I could finally relax, because she actually liked it!!
5. I started watching Word of Honor, and I absolutely adore it. Once again, no one specifically recommended it to me, but I did see a Twitter thread comparing Wen Kexing to different flavors of KitKats, and I took the dive. It hasn't consumed my brain in the same way as CQL, but I did watch 21 episodes in less than three days, and I did cry actual tears into my morning tea yesterday. I'm genuinely having fun. Favorite character by far is Gu Xiang. I can't help it. I'm a sucker for a spunky kid in purple.
Okay! I think that's all I can squeeze out of myself for today. More thoughtful, organized posts in the future (maybe)!
I don't know if I can turn all of that energy into a coherent post, but I did want to mark it down somewhere to look back on later when it inevitably becomes hard for me again. I just want to get a few things down before the intense perfectionism brings me down again. So, I'm going to let this post be a bit disorganized, and I'm going to go as far down a random list of things as I can before I get tired.
1. I want to try answering a few questions off the 31 Days of The Untamed meme that
jo_lasalle made and littledust has been doing.( Day 1 )
2. The meme I did and then deleted (Twitter and my brain are pure chaos together) was about posting WIP file names and inviting people to ask about them. I'm always so afraid of posting things like that, because they require outside participation to function. In my heart, I know no responses probably means bad timing/bad luck with the algorithm. But my brain always manages to convince me that it's because I'm dumb or boring. I did legitimately have fun tracking down all my WIPs, so I thought I'd just post them here. Not because I expect anyone to be interested, but because they're eating a hole in my brain, and I have to do something semi-public with them or I'll never get any peace!
( Does this count as a WIP Wednesday??? )
3. Speaking of fanfiction! I finished a ficlet to fill a MDZS rarepairs prompt, but I'm not sure I'm confident to post it in any way that will link back to an account that is me. My AO3 account isn't linked to my Twitter or Dreamwidth, so I think I'd be comfortable posting it as part of the collection there and then linking to it in an anonymous comment on DW. If I do that, though, I definitely need to get started on my goal of doing a bit of maintenance on the one fic I finished/posted back in September. I reread it a few days ago, and I'm still pleased with the overall idea, but I don't like the title, I don't like the description, and there are just a few annoying inconsistencies/repetitions between the chapters I'd like to clean up before bringing any attention to the account. I don't know anyone to help beta, so it ultimately turned out pretty rough, despite my best efforts... ANYway, I've been meaning to give it a little sprucing up for ages, so this is good motivation!
4. I finished my Xiao Xingchen embroidery gift and sent it to my friend. I got the notification that it had been delivered at the same time that she posted on Twitter about driving home from the grocery store, and my breath literally left my body. It was, like, ten minutes of pure agony before she posted on her account about it, and I could finally relax, because she actually liked it!!
5. I started watching Word of Honor, and I absolutely adore it. Once again, no one specifically recommended it to me, but I did see a Twitter thread comparing Wen Kexing to different flavors of KitKats, and I took the dive. It hasn't consumed my brain in the same way as CQL, but I did watch 21 episodes in less than three days, and I did cry actual tears into my morning tea yesterday. I'm genuinely having fun. Favorite character by far is Gu Xiang. I can't help it. I'm a sucker for a spunky kid in purple.
Okay! I think that's all I can squeeze out of myself for today. More thoughtful, organized posts in the future (maybe)!
