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hatpinvigilante) wrote2021-03-30 09:32 pm
hatpinvigilante) wrote2021-03-30 09:32 pm
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xiao xingchen welfare check
A very quick update, just to have my little proud, accomplished moment. Xiao Xingchen is officially sealed in a box (oh my god, this feels wrong) and will be en route to my friend as of tomorrow morning!
I'm always incredibly self-conscious of giving gifts I've made myself. When I was very little (maybe six or seven), I spent some time drawing my friend, T, who I thought was the prettiest person I knew, but when I gave her the drawing, she was so offended because she thought I'd made her ugly on purpose. She honestly may have just handed it back to me, but I remember her crumpling it up and throwing it. Ahhhhhh!!! Was that a life-defining moment for me? Yeah, I think so...
I think it's true when people say that simple things are often harder to pull off. There's nowhere to hide here. No pops of color or fun textures to distract from the mistakes. He's just beige...on white...on grey... He doesn't even have eyes!!
And I only realized after finishing that it's a much bigger hoop than I'm used to (I think he's got an inch on Jiang Cheng and Jin Guangyao), which explains why I had so much trouble with wrinkling fabric. And I wish I had made the background lines closer together, but I was running out of silver thread, and also patience... Only small projects for me from now on!
Anyway, I'm just trying to remind myself that whether my friend likes it or not isn't the point. Whether she posts it on her account or remembers to thank me privately or doesn't say anything at all, whether she loves it or puts it in a drawer, throws it away or regifts it...none of that is going to change the intentions that drove me to make it in the first place. I just wanted to send her some unconditional love during a difficult time, and, whether or not this piece is "good" or "bad," I think it gets the message across.
(And I do think he looks really lovely with the cemetery flowers.)
I'm always incredibly self-conscious of giving gifts I've made myself. When I was very little (maybe six or seven), I spent some time drawing my friend, T, who I thought was the prettiest person I knew, but when I gave her the drawing, she was so offended because she thought I'd made her ugly on purpose. She honestly may have just handed it back to me, but I remember her crumpling it up and throwing it. Ahhhhhh!!! Was that a life-defining moment for me? Yeah, I think so...
I think it's true when people say that simple things are often harder to pull off. There's nowhere to hide here. No pops of color or fun textures to distract from the mistakes. He's just beige...on white...on grey... He doesn't even have eyes!!
And I only realized after finishing that it's a much bigger hoop than I'm used to (I think he's got an inch on Jiang Cheng and Jin Guangyao), which explains why I had so much trouble with wrinkling fabric. And I wish I had made the background lines closer together, but I was running out of silver thread, and also patience... Only small projects for me from now on!
Anyway, I'm just trying to remind myself that whether my friend likes it or not isn't the point. Whether she posts it on her account or remembers to thank me privately or doesn't say anything at all, whether she loves it or puts it in a drawer, throws it away or regifts it...none of that is going to change the intentions that drove me to make it in the first place. I just wanted to send her some unconditional love during a difficult time, and, whether or not this piece is "good" or "bad," I think it gets the message across.
(And I do think he looks really lovely with the cemetery flowers.)